Stuck

My life has taken a stand still I can't do anything I can't even begin to move forward because I don't want to be here in this house in this community more or less anymore. I want to MOVE! I don't want to be seen as sick anymore or incapacitated by any means. I want to move on! I want to move forwards! I want a LIFE! Not just an existence. But for now it seems I'm stuck here on this couch getting bigger and bigger and nowhere fast like the gum stuck to the bottom of your shoe. I'm STUCK! No forwards, and no backwards, well at least that's a positive. 

By the way my dad picks up the marijuana tomorrow. How that is a positive step in the right direction I have no idea. 

Xx Bec