I can't keep doing this! I starve to feel alive, but yet I know it is ultimately killin me. I am emotionally dead as is my family can see this illness slowly ravage through my body. Each bite I take the loathing myltiplies. Each bite I take is a step closer to the minute I forfit.
I honestly can't keep living like this it takes so much energy to conceal something so in concealable. I just want to tell my parents I've relapsed and I don't want help. But I know you fight for what or in this case whom you love. It's not an easy battle.
I finally lost 200g this morning so my BMI has dropped back again. 400 from gw1
"Nobody realises that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal"- Albert Camus
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