Today has ruined me.
I can't fit into any of my old clothes and yet I refuse to throw them out as I hanker to be that tiny size again.
I'm having a down day :(
I'm feeling like a fat abomination!
I want to go back to September the month of not eating a morsel and getting skinny even though it might of been torture I could stand my body and now I've just been made fat... again.
I'm planning my plight and what a tremendous plight it will be!
The professionals have given up on me. My team are the only ones that hold shards of faith. And I refuse to hold faith!
Maybe this time I'll die? I can't continue to live this way! I don't want to!
I want my control back! I want my Anorexia back.
Do I just continue this facade until I have them wrapped around my little finger powerless to take action?
I think so.
This tube is doing my head in!
...and then she fell from grace
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